Time really flies and I guess you can tell from my lack of posting, that my resolutions are not really progressing that well.
But that is not to say that I have not made efforts into fulfilling those resolutions.
I've made a weight gain of perhaps 1-2kg, which hopefully are all muscles and not fat.
I've attended a muay thai free trial and I am quite determined to start the lessons before November ends and this is in spite of the hefty $250 lesson fees.
I've forgotten what little I have learnt on playing the guitar. I seriously suspect that I have no talent for musical instruments and I guess that kinda ended my far-fetch dreams of joining a band.
My spoken english was no better despite great efforts spent emoting to english mtvs which led me to suspect that this is not a really good way to improve my english.
The nearest of which I have gone to the swimming pool is to the food stall at CCK stadium. I still cannot swim to save my life.
Truth to tell though, I am coming to the realization that I could not possibly complete all the resolutions that I've set due to time, money and willpower constraints, therefore, I will just keep an open mind on learning new things and just keep learning whatever I can.
I read somewhere that life would have been more smooth sailing if one is less self conscious and I realize that many times, I care too much about how others see me to truly enjoy what I am doing. Its like when you are singing in the KTV and you refrain from screaming out when singing (even though you really feel like doing so) because you are afraid to look stupid when you go out of tune or some shit like that.
I think it will be stupid to live my life not daring to do something that I might enjoy just becuase it might make me look uncool.
So, in an attempt to make myself less self conscious, I am putting myself into situations in which I will look stupid. This is why I have signed up for a Jazz introduction dance class even though I am born with two left foot.
My last resolution for the year. To be able to laugh at myself when others are laughing at me :)
I will have to give up my dark, cool and brooding image to do that though, hahahaha.
P.S. As usual, the entry contains a lot of crap from me and anyone who might take offense from it should treat this post as nonsensical ramblings.
